Week 4: Blame game
I am very focused and I won't say that this if for the first time ever! I have been focused before. I know how easy it is to say how good I am going and then fall away. I am different today to what I have ever been, that is true. Each day my relationship strengthens with my walk with Jesus, however he can never be any closer to me than what he already is. He has already paid the ultimate sacrifice for me. I can do nothing to gain greater love from him because he loves me more than I can humanly understand. This relates to my love of myself, or rather, lack of love for myself to allow me to fall away. Over the years this could be said for my faith as I have not always believed as I do now. I don't think my faith would mean as much to me if I had not fallen away in the first place as I seem to need hard knocks to really 'get it' with some things. Some people get it faster than others. Similar to weight loss I guess. Some people just don't back down no matter what. I have found that with certain things such as alcohol I can weaken very quickly and yet I do have a past that is disturbing because of it. It is not the alcohol's fault; I mean we blame it, but really it is really our lack of self control we have issues with. I can easily blame excuses on not attending gym. The other day my schedule was so busy that I could only fit in 20mins of exercise (I made it count by 'climbing' a hill on the treadmill and running fast) although if I had not gone busyness would have won. Why did I used to allow that? I know why, because I allow it to happen. As Mish's video said this week it is up to us inevitebly. This is no different to knowing Jesus. He is there, ready to love us and receive us. All we have to do is say "Jesus, please come into my life. I need you as I cannot do this." This is not weak, as you are led to believe, but rather you are strong for asking. Just as our body gets strong as we build it up in exercise and eating well, so our faith develops and our strength is given to us like no other. I zone out when I exercise at the gym I attend and just let God do whatever he needs to do. I call on him to help me and he does.
Today when I was doing my stretching after the cardio workout, I really liked the look of my legs. I was not admiring them at such, but I was thrilled to be at this early stage in my journey with eating & exercising well. That is an achievement. Thank God for the achievement, not yourself. God is allowing us to be well enough to feel the effort that we need and to look to him to push past it. I love this feeling that I have at the moment. It is a mixture of knowing that I am doing something really good for myself and not allowing my weaknesses to crumple me. In saying all of this, my kids and I are making the gingerbread house tonight, so I will let you know if I suceeded at not eating any yummies. Why am I doing this before weigh in tomorrow????
I am very focused and I won't say that this if for the first time ever! I have been focused before. I know how easy it is to say how good I am going and then fall away. I am different today to what I have ever been, that is true. Each day my relationship strengthens with my walk with Jesus, however he can never be any closer to me than what he already is. He has already paid the ultimate sacrifice for me. I can do nothing to gain greater love from him because he loves me more than I can humanly understand. This relates to my love of myself, or rather, lack of love for myself to allow me to fall away. Over the years this could be said for my faith as I have not always believed as I do now. I don't think my faith would mean as much to me if I had not fallen away in the first place as I seem to need hard knocks to really 'get it' with some things. Some people get it faster than others. Similar to weight loss I guess. Some people just don't back down no matter what. I have found that with certain things such as alcohol I can weaken very quickly and yet I do have a past that is disturbing because of it. It is not the alcohol's fault; I mean we blame it, but really it is really our lack of self control we have issues with. I can easily blame excuses on not attending gym. The other day my schedule was so busy that I could only fit in 20mins of exercise (I made it count by 'climbing' a hill on the treadmill and running fast) although if I had not gone busyness would have won. Why did I used to allow that? I know why, because I allow it to happen. As Mish's video said this week it is up to us inevitebly. This is no different to knowing Jesus. He is there, ready to love us and receive us. All we have to do is say "Jesus, please come into my life. I need you as I cannot do this." This is not weak, as you are led to believe, but rather you are strong for asking. Just as our body gets strong as we build it up in exercise and eating well, so our faith develops and our strength is given to us like no other. I zone out when I exercise at the gym I attend and just let God do whatever he needs to do. I call on him to help me and he does.
Today when I was doing my stretching after the cardio workout, I really liked the look of my legs. I was not admiring them at such, but I was thrilled to be at this early stage in my journey with eating & exercising well. That is an achievement. Thank God for the achievement, not yourself. God is allowing us to be well enough to feel the effort that we need and to look to him to push past it. I love this feeling that I have at the moment. It is a mixture of knowing that I am doing something really good for myself and not allowing my weaknesses to crumple me. In saying all of this, my kids and I are making the gingerbread house tonight, so I will let you know if I suceeded at not eating any yummies. Why am I doing this before weigh in tomorrow????
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