Okay, confession time once again. I have put on weight this week due to alcohol and eating not as good as what I would normally. Boy, does it have the effect on my whole thinking! In past years, before MB, I would say that I was a "OH well, too bad, I have stuffed up this week!!! Might as well start afresh on Monday again", and use that as an excuse to slip off the rails. Well, I am not going to give in to that self pleasure. Yesterday morning as I was reflecting and praying, I found this verse in James 4:7-8:
"Submit yourselves then, to God. Resist the devil & he will flee from you. Come near to God and he will come near to you. Wash your hands you sinners and purify your hearts, you double minded."
I have a James commentary by Tyndale. It says: "The devil's man purpose is the separate God and man. This separation of the Christian must resist. The devil will flee from you. Satan does not have the power." To draw near to God we have:
The external power = washing hands, and the
internal behaviour = purify your hearts.
1 John 3:22 says: "...and receive from him anything we ask, because we obey his commands and do what pleases him."
With this I say that I will not be tempted by what I desire when really the desire is short lived (just like Satan) and I will not overall receive what I really want, which is to lose weight and beat this addiction of food. If I truly wash my hands of this addiction, I need to purify my heart with God and pray instead of turning to food when I feel distracted to what I am meant to be doing or feel bored with what I am currently doing. I am not an emotional eater, so much as that I eat to avoid completing something I have to finish. I may use it as a way to have a break, although sometimes I break so much I eat more than what I am meant to and don't ever finish what I started out to do. I noticed this at uni when assignments were really hard and took so much time to complete. It almost becomes procrastination. I will not be a procrastinator.
Okay, so time to get out the determination I had the first round of Michelle Bridges. I was gung-ho completely for the program. What has changed? I am happy with my current weight, size 16 but I know I desire to be at a 14. I don't want to 'wish' I was a 14. I want to be a 14. So, to achieve this I have prayed to my heavenly Father asking for his help because I cannot do this alone. I will not let myself down on this.
"Submit yourselves then, to God. Resist the devil & he will flee from you. Come near to God and he will come near to you. Wash your hands you sinners and purify your hearts, you double minded."
I have a James commentary by Tyndale. It says: "The devil's man purpose is the separate God and man. This separation of the Christian must resist. The devil will flee from you. Satan does not have the power." To draw near to God we have:
The external power = washing hands, and the
internal behaviour = purify your hearts.
1 John 3:22 says: "...and receive from him anything we ask, because we obey his commands and do what pleases him."
With this I say that I will not be tempted by what I desire when really the desire is short lived (just like Satan) and I will not overall receive what I really want, which is to lose weight and beat this addiction of food. If I truly wash my hands of this addiction, I need to purify my heart with God and pray instead of turning to food when I feel distracted to what I am meant to be doing or feel bored with what I am currently doing. I am not an emotional eater, so much as that I eat to avoid completing something I have to finish. I may use it as a way to have a break, although sometimes I break so much I eat more than what I am meant to and don't ever finish what I started out to do. I noticed this at uni when assignments were really hard and took so much time to complete. It almost becomes procrastination. I will not be a procrastinator.
Okay, so time to get out the determination I had the first round of Michelle Bridges. I was gung-ho completely for the program. What has changed? I am happy with my current weight, size 16 but I know I desire to be at a 14. I don't want to 'wish' I was a 14. I want to be a 14. So, to achieve this I have prayed to my heavenly Father asking for his help because I cannot do this alone. I will not let myself down on this.
Good luck luv, i am sure you will achieve your goal, you have been simply amazing with your program. B xxx
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